tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-15950673315728478602011-12-09T01:09:56.675-05:00I write therefore I express. Welcome to the journey of my world.Efrutiknoreply@blogger.comBlogger1691100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-68856885325447364002011-12-09T01:09:00.000-05:002011-12-09T01:09:56.682-05:00

It has now been a few days since my return from probably the biggest trip of my life yet. In short I came back from Ethiopia where I have not been in about 20 years. I've also squeezed in a trip to Germany and Seattle on my way back home. Now back I am faced with many news...life changing news. One of them an upcoming layoff from work. In fact this news was brought to me the first day back at

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This is what I love. 1. People who know their priorities and are pursuing them in their own ways. 2. Being able to see how other people live, because it allows me to dream and imagine my life as well ~ what can be! 3. A different way of thinking. 

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Yesterday I saw a very memorable quote during the 2011 Oscar Awards. It was featured during a tribute to Lena Horne in which she was quoted saying: "It's not the load that breaks you down, it's the way you carry it." Her words are immortal as much as the contribution she has made for women not only like myself but from all walks of life. Today I am carrying my load perhaps not in the best way,

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Today is a special day for many reasons. For some it could be the big Thanksgiving Holiday, for others it can be a Birthday celebration, maybe you are super excited about the shopping frenzy of today, or just about anything really. The possibilities of today beings a special day are infinite- any day in that case actually. For me today it's mostly about the holiday, true nature of gratitude, and

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Right after watching the film I sort of cried. I even had an urge to write something. Then it all sort of shifted, I've calmed down and it didn't even take that long.

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In exactly two weeks from now I will be in a completely new place, maybe even blogging from a completely different bed! Although I have not moved yet, and to be honest I'm not quite sure anymore when that will take place, I know for sure that in two weeks my life will be completely different. I briefly posted about my upcoming trip to Europe here on the blog, and the post itself has long been

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У меня ощущение что я уже давно умерла, здесь только остатки девушки которая когда жила во мне. Я легко роздражима, вижу чуть ли ни капельки счастья в жизни, и я боюсь кого-то заразить моими печальными мыслями. Я не люблю себя уже давно и вот именно сейчас я это начинаю понимать всё больше и больше. Ну что же мне делать?

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I don't have any pictures to share here today. Well I do but I technically don't. Yes confusing isn't it. So has the whirlpool of my life these days.

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There may be a whole host of things that I can't do and awe people with my feet sweeping skills. Yet, I can proudly say that I can cook for someone with great pleasure and a whimsical sense of playfulness combined with stress, while cooking up a storm in the kitchen. Oh, I know I am a bit exaggerating here, but still I'm very glad that I can cook and can feed a hungry stomach.  Today I made a

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Since yesterday a dear friend of mine from I am Timeless blog, has been encouraging readers to  participate in the Blog Action Day 2010. To particularly talk about the importance of a very essential element in everyone's daily life. Unfortunately these days it has become a sheer luxury for a very significant number of earth's population; statistically speaking to a staggering 1 billion of humans

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I kind of want to study massage therapy. However, I am impulsive it is sort of a fact that I know about myself. Sometimes I like something so much that I actually want to pursue it with an obsessive vigor (on this blog you will find examples). Only to later realize that I probably have an issue to dedicating myself to that thing. But I have been thinking about this endeavour for quite some time

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Happy Birthday mum, I hope you enjoyed every moment of it! Random act of madness...fun! Hmm it's nearly 2am and I am still up. Well that certainly should help with my sleeping then as I have been waking up around this time most of the pervious days. Now I amt tired, cranky, and sleepy! Not to happy that I didn't make the midnight deadline to post things from Tuesday but hey, better late than

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I read an expression on someone’s blog not too long ago, and it has been sort of stored somewhere inside my memory cells ever since. “Rolling with the punches", rolling with the punches, rolling with the punches... I believe someone left a comment on a post stating that the person in the blog was good at "rolling with the punches" or something like that; I have forgotten all of the details by

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It's October 8th, remember my date??? Off to court. Well that should be an experience. Keep me in your thoughts guys, I will need the positive energy.

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So I'm dealing with the wonderful land of bureaucracy, still. Ever since my health situation I'm facing a dreadful prospect of having to deal a handful of incompetency and pay a darn medical bill. Yes, the bill has arrived yesterday. I think the most expensive thing was the bed I lay on for about 1.5 hours. I guess it's worth the $689 that I am being charged for it, after all it had wheels and

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I have succumbed to the activity which I dread the most. My hands are beginning to get cold! Actually my right hand, meaning fingers, have a tendency to get frozen when it is cold...and I have not even stepped outside yet. I guess you can say I have a "frozen hand syndrome."Also I will be happily wearing my leggings and stockings underneath my jeans- a proved remedy for keeping myself warm. As

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Oh yes summer is definitely a thing of the past now. Au revoir ma chérie warmth, in spite of my summer long complaints about the scourging heat, I truly miss you...well a little. How do I know you ask? Well besides the obvious change of weather and the awful wetness that has been just such a damp today, no pun intended either! HA, yes well my feet are frozen and so are my fingers on my right hand

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I am off to a socializing/cocktail/networking/reunion event courtesy of my sister. Why am I bothering to write this down well because with all the crooked events in my life lately, especially with health, this is my first socializing event in the past 3 weeks! No family actually doesn't count, I'm off to meet real strangers. And oh my a girl could use a good cocktail. Now only if I knew how to

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That's right I said bomb it! Oh no don't worry I am not advocating some sort of terrorist related activity and you don't have to report me to the FBI or prepare a counter insurgency tactic, instead I am talking about graffiti art. I watched a fascinating film just moments ago which is called that "Bomb It"- a global graffiti documentary. The fact that I saw this film now is not surprising

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I'm back from my New York weekend. Drove back up to my place yesterday after a very useful drive into and out of New York with my aunt's best friend and her kids. The bad thing now is that my car is acting up of course, it was a bit of a scary 30 minute drive back to my parents' to be honest. But I did prefer driving in the evening rather than the morning commute, hence risking being stuck on the

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It is official today I am going to NYC for the weekend and probably some, well I think for the weekend at least. There is going to be my cousin's 1st Birthday celebration which I am ecstatic about. I love my family in NY they truly are my gems. Plus I get to be around babies, yes contrary to yesterday's post, I do like kids. In fact they like me too, so that's always good. Now I will catch a free

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Are you serious? I mean today was supposed to be the first day of autumn, well according to my Hallmark's calendar at least. Umm I don't know but 92°F which is about 32°C doesn't seem to me like it's fall for some reason. I am literally sweating almost fainting in my room here. Does it have to be this hot? It is beyond confusing out there I tell you. I mean when I go to my car in the mornigs and

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There is a person out there who is far, far, far away. That person is approximately 6,239 km away from where I am at the moment. Yet, when I read the words that person writes me while sharing inner thoughts I feel completely overtaken and deeply touched in my inner core. You keep unravelling yourself to me and I feel closer to you than our transatlantic distance. "you see, it's only lifelife is

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I actually just this moment decided not to follow a certain blog I came across because I thought "dang them being all cute would actually depress me as hell". NO I am not vain, I promise just being honest, hahaha...although you might think otherwise. In any cases, there is so much to do!!!!!!!!! Packing when moving to a different place is a headache. I have to sort things out, figure out how to

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When I take my showers, I often silently talk to myself (yes it’s possible with an internal conversation that is) and reflect, reflect, reflect, and reflect some more on my life. In fact, some of my best ideas come to me during my washing sessions. I wonder if other people do the same or they are silent when they take their showers. Hmmmmm another thought then right? One of the biggest thoughts

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I'm not always gloomy. I'm not always something actually. I'm only evolving each day and crossing my own life's bridges. Cheers to San Francisco then!

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Can I breath now?  Please...I mean why does all this stuff just has to happen. And I thought September was going to be a good month and a great time for everyday blogging. Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight....shoulda thought twice about that one. My current list of things to worry about, in no particular order is: Car "break" light not turning off for the past three days. Emergency room visit medical bill,

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Dearest readers, This is an open letter that I would like to address to all of you. Be it to 6 of my loyal (well I think like 5 people actually) readers/followers, or just wonderful souls who can spare their time to wonder around in my lovely blog. Yes it is lovely because I happen to think so and I like it very much. And no I am not conceited just pointing out a fact here. In any case, I will

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Today is the 9th anniversary of September 11, 2001. A day which shook my new adopted nation by as by an predicted storm. A similar kind of storm which destroys things on its path yet this one was different. It not only was fueled by hate but also left a lot of left behind after it passed. But then again does loss of great multitude, or even small by that matter, ever passes? The pain stays with

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Oh hello there, good  morning so what are your plans for October 8th? Why you ask? Well because apparently I know mine as of this morning. Certainly my 151st post was not supposed to be about this! Then again, when is life about what it is supposed to be? It appears now that since September 8th, I have been summoned to court to testify. If you need a mini recap, it's ok catch up here. And to

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 I can't believe it but this is my 150th post already. The best way to celebrate is to post about dancing.  Hence, this post is on dancing, which I absolutely love doing! Oh and also in a bit I'm going to a citizenship ceremony for my friend. What a lovely occasion as you may recall citizenship has a very significant meaning to me. Usted recuerden cuando hablabo sobre como yo queria a mejorar

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"If Life turns out just a little bit your way, it could be just beautiful"       - Beautiful People Yesterday I received a very neat postcard from Green Island in  Taiwan sent to me by my friend on her vacation. It really put a smile on my face, one of the few yesterday, as I absolutely loooooooove receiving postcards from my friends (hint hint hint!).

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I am tired

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Written on Saturday, September 4th, 2010 I am exhausted from my day's journey. It was a diverse concoction of events, places, people, emotions, and experiences overall. I volunteered, almost got in a car crash during my scenic drive, goofed around with my best friend, and went out dancing in the city. Since I am too tired for all of the thorough recap I will simply share pictures instead. But

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This post was actually written for September 3, 2010 Believe it or not it's almost 2am, and I'm still eating. In fact I am a huge foodie or to be just plain non fancy and honest, I Heart eating food ! Ok, a recap then. I went out to a dinner (which in U.S. could be anytime from like 7PM to 3 AM in the morning) to celebrate her Green Card! Yes I'm super happy for her because I love to see people

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I think of this I wanna blog every day this month. September which I welcomed yesterday...I feel like actually might be a special month this time around. On my blog at least. In any case this post is a mesh-up of thoughts for the day...or at least what I remember while trying to write a mini recap. Today was a fine day. I babysat my cousin who is almost three years old. He is a very how should

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Getting lazy again! Sorry have not yet posted more details on that crazy weekend of mine. Well, what is there to say really. I don't miss jail that's for sure or anything jail related for that matter. Bailing out a friend and having to be escorted by a police officer to a place of residence to pick up items because you are banned! from your place is a daunting task. So although I have cooled down

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Saturday was a bang and not a whisper indeed. I will write about this more of course, but I will say the following briefly. An insanely fun night dancing out with my girlfriends on Friday. A day in jail on Saturday. Talk about adding zest to my life now!

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Разгадаю ли я тебя, моё сердечко ?

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I'm experiencing a deep sense of loss. I'm losing my zest for living lately. Well this has been in the making for a while now really, certainly not a one day type of feeling too Things are not exciting anymore and I would definitely, very much gladly go into hibernation for an indefinite period of time if given a chance. Actually today I had a thought that after paying off my student loans (which

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Today I found my verse in time of solitude and reflection. These vivid words have very gently touched my inner soul. I take these powerful words with submission to the power of their salvation and inner growth. I don't think that the Biblical verses have ever made me feel as much as this one before.Spirituality is a very deep notion in my life that I strive to explore and discover throughout my

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My morning started with a swift wake up and an immediate getting out of the bed. For a couple of days now after taking a walk around our neighborhood, I have been nursing a thought of cleaning up the street we walked on. I must note that this is a walk which is one block distance from my place and where my cousin lives. I call it "a space with absent responsibility" because people seem to only

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"I am capable and I am lovable." There is something stunning with that happens when you stare long enough in the mirror and face yourself. Just your face and your voice - and if you do it long enough, you actually start to take yourself exceptionally serious. As in "yes I am talking to you...you...I mean me!".                                                 On another note, I have decided that

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-74593087963310561172010-08-16T23:34:00.010-04:002010-10-14T12:45:23.194-04:00

I know I have been mostly rambling, well dishing out a lot about my personals on this blog. After all, that's partially why I made it in the first place. But I think I will soon move on to a new project with a different blog. Soon. Until then, a bit of updates. Last Friday I went on a "potential job interview" and I saw a well anticipated film.First that job thing. Well, as I had anticipated I

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I know today is not even over yet, but still I'm tempted to write about tomorrow nonetheless. So on Friday the 13th, two important things are bound to happen...at least what I have scheduled thus far. In the morning I have a job interview which is contingent upon passing a proofreading exam first. I've never done this before and English is my third language so help me God (or Gods and all the

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I just finished watching yet another film. A French one, and if you are fond of their cinematography then you know they shamelessly point out the wrongs in our lives. This film is about a 23 year old girl  by the name Jeanne, who is going through that phase in her life of trying to make it someplace at her age. To be exact she is looking for work, relentlessly trying to not lose her entire mind

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2623 I've waited long for the............But all I've seen is that change will fleeOut there, I know you are, out therePursuing life as one should beAnd I am here, still watching Having lost the faith in thee2623, you will not change todayLet's sleep then shall we?Perhaps thy will flee soon enough from me * *A dedication to my e-mail box

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Today is the 49th Birthday of our beloved President in the U.S.A. Unless you live not on this planet, you might not know who I am talking about (even then I think it is highly unlikely). In any case, I would like to wish our President all the strength to continue to lead our nation and keep insipiring all of those who sincerely believe in him and his vision. May you President Barack Obama be

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-13651722417036097902010-08-04T02:46:00.002-04:002010-08-04T02:48:01.198-04:00

I'm going to ponder upon these words for a few days now.   "If you keep thinking about what you want to do or what you hope will happen, you don't do it, and it won't happen." ~Desiderius Erasmus~

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Well these days ( as seemingly many in my recent years) have been on the down low level of....everything.  Energy level down.Inspiration level down.Commitment level down.Positive outlook level down. Actually near the level of "I don't care about it that much anymore".Interest in things that were exciting before..definitely down. Oh wait appetite is actually on the extreme high end. My routine

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-59446756156844233902010-08-01T21:23:00.000-04:002010-08-01T21:23:11.179-04:00

When I get a job and have stable feet to stand on my own I will commit some of my time to helping with this program called "SOHO- A space of her own". I know how it feels to have a corner for a room...a semi-room that is.  Growing up in Russia, I shared one room with my entire family. Sort of speak, we had an "apartment" which was one entire room that was transformed into two bedrooms (for my

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Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-77733311499354840582010-07-31T19:11:00.000-04:002010-07-31T19:11:36.957-04:00

Is the human mind ever quiet? I really wonder if that is possible. Is that why people do mediation, but even then...is it really possible to quiet the mind and stop all sorts of minute and random thoughts just creeping up inside the mind and make one think, think, think, think, and THINK some more? Well, as I just washed some dishes in the sink, all I could hear was the voice in my head that was

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-80808024895529875522010-07-30T11:18:00.000-04:002010-07-30T11:18:14.752-04:00

If you are a blogger from Italy, Ireland, Romania and Bulgaria I highly advice to keep your eye out for some limitations imposed upon your state on your blogging. I read an article this morning from the EUobserver news site titled "Italian gag law threatens bloggers with €25,000 for 'incorrect' facts". So basically if you live in Italy and you have that extra cash to spend, at least spend it on

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-63728785571497947852010-07-29T12:45:00.000-04:002010-07-29T12:45:46.863-04:00

The first "foreign song" I heard in my childhood....memories.

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I have four years to have things figured out. 4 years to have the path going and be joined by someone to continue on that path with. 4 years. With the rate at which time is passing by these days, I am afraid to blink and wake up in that future. A near future it seems already. Did you notice that it is July 26th already?

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I am miserable at the moment. Ear is hurting like hell, well as if I was in hell and small creatures were violently causing trouble inside of it. The same left ear that took days to pop after my flight from California. Miserable I tell you. In fact, if I haven't said this before but my right side of the body is a bit of  a defect in general. The right hand is usually always cold, the right wrist

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-84170423701041849882010-07-20T11:46:00.000-04:002010-07-20T11:46:23.551-04:00

Yes, the topic here is shame. I am deeply ashamed of what you see bellow these words.  Oh no you did not stumble upon a dump of beautiful (if I may say so myself) shoes, no you have stumbled upon my shameful pile instead. WTF is wrong with me ? I even forgot I had some of these shoes. Look at them, they wouldn't even fit in my closet, so what business do I have owning all of them then at the

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-30387463131561170072010-07-15T05:39:00.000-04:002010-07-15T05:39:01.657-04:00

  One day I might write a book about all this stuff in my head, life, around me too. Right now "all that I know is I'm breathing"......................... P.S. thank you to Animated Confessions for sharing this song.

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Sooooooooooo last minute hastle before a flight back to the East coast! Gosh, I'm going to miss Cali...with all that has happened here in days it is going to last me for years of memories. Ok, on to scheduling my shuttle to the airport after missing a flight due to my slowness....wow. Yeah so my flight was hours ago and I am late! Cheers

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-43250468452627328702010-07-11T20:11:00.000-04:002010-07-11T20:11:03.658-04:00

Yes, I bitched so much about SF being so cold. Promise not to do this anymore...well occasionally, but at least not now. In fact, I am in Palo Alto, CA now near Stanford University. It has been very nice here so far. Most importantly warm and pleasant to be even wondering outside. Occasionally, there is a chill but nothing that a sweater can't help out with. Just a short note to show that I am

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-8268373254548574582010-07-09T12:32:00.000-04:002010-07-09T12:32:19.488-04:00

In San Fran atm. It is FRIGGING COLD here. I mean cold, cold, cold, COLD. I don't know what is worse to be in D.C. and die from a heat wave, or consistently endure cold frozen feet syndrome ?  Hmmm In any case. I have been naughty these past days. I admit, and given the fact that is Friday. Well you know that could be trouble spelled all over the notebook. I'm not even kidding about this. But all

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-46143879769564146872010-07-05T11:19:00.000-04:002010-07-05T11:19:47.245-04:00

Hi friends, Just a tiny entry asking for your advice. I will be leaving for San Francisco, California in a  couple days. I am staying in Downtown San Francisco and also going to Palo Alto, California where Stanford University is located. If you have any suggestions on what you would advice a first time traveler!!!! to do please share. Also, general tips on how to overcome being terrified of

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-54344559369091347812010-07-03T21:29:00.000-04:002010-07-03T21:29:39.125-04:00

I had a good day. It actually feels good to say that I had a GOOD day. Not a crazy day, but a good day which was simple yet spent with great friends. Now home, just doing more thinking and writing which I am in love with :) YES I have admitted to myself that I do enjoy writing, in fact so much that a pen and paper have always been my companions throughout all the years of my life! So, nothing

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-13055505971479697472010-07-01T04:21:00.002-04:002010-07-01T05:15:13.840-04:00

 As yesterday marked yet another destructive day for my psyche there was definitely a lot of unhealthy and damaging thinking going on in my head. I have my reasons for them not merely a melancholy of some unidentified sort. In any case, as the day was nearing it's end I was doing random things, all of which required finally actually doing something. Well, I still didn't manage to get out of the

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-54907389975118162072010-06-30T19:58:00.000-04:002010-06-30T19:58:12.769-04:00

Can life be like in a movie ? Can they imitate life to a tee ? I wish my life was a non drama, good humor, inspiring movie. I wish, I wish, I wish. And can movies cure the blues....I hope they can.

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There is something incredibly liberating about booking a flight all on your own. WOW my first independent trip. Scared ? OUT OF MY HEAD yes, but also sort of cultivating a sense of pride and thrilling excitement. I'm sort of having an adrenaline rush of not knowing what to expect, but still craving the unknown!!!!!!!!!!! Gosh it's all so new an thrilling at the same time. I hope this will be a

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-32794864253866924572010-06-28T12:47:00.000-04:002010-06-28T12:47:30.653-04:00

I've been saying that I will move my blog to a new location. Well sit tight, it's not going to be a grand opening as well the new European Union presidency is promising to be. But none the less it's coming soon and until then I am coming out of hibernation and posting some random thoughts. Now on that new EU presidency. Essentially what this means is that every 6 months the European Union rotates

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-4155066918878889492010-06-15T19:09:00.000-04:002010-06-15T19:09:56.236-04:00

I understand break ups are difficult, but respect is non-negotiable. My blog will be moving soon, can't wait for that to happen, but must be patient until my wireless is fixed. Other than that what is new is another job fair on Friday, funeral on Saturday, trip on Monday , and most importantly survival everyday!

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I think I made a boo-boo today, but hoping that in fact did not. At least there is a lovely song that is soothing the potential damage.

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A friend of mine in England posted this video on BP oil spill on his fb profile. I decided to share with you all. It's sarcastically hilarious in immitating life. Thoughts ? Also, I am really enjoying my weekend with great friends. And as if I have not been subtly hammering the point already, I will do it once again. FRIENDS ARE ESSENTIAL IN EVERYONE'S LIFE!. And, I'm thinking of moving my

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-5360578585608930992010-06-11T17:09:00.003-04:002010-08-12T11:36:22.944-04:00

Not too long ago I picked up my book which I had requested from the library. You can read more about it here and listen to the author Elizabeth Gilbert's interview as well.. I am excited to find some time to just sit down and enjoy the book. I'm really hoping that it grabs me and carries me away with the writer into her journey.     What have you been excited to read lately ?

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What I really don't like about people is inability to follow through. Really, I think when you promise something then you should definitely follow through and finish it up even if it might be difficult for you. I don't like wishy-washy, off and on again follow up ethic. A humongous turn off to say the least. But my day is not starting of on a venting not in spite of it all. I am presenting you

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My 100th post will not be depressing or sad. Instead, it will be a smile. I am blessed in spit of many things. I am grateful for all the love I have in my life. I am blessed to have some increadibly loving, ordinarily extraordinary people in my life. My 100th post is filled with gratitude and compassion. My 100th post makes me happy to uplift myself to go even for more in the future.

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No longer friends from what I see. My heart will ache for  a long time indeed. Wish you could have also seen and heard the truth in me. Now I will grief with the kind of tears that are still foreign to me. It hurts. They hurt, the memories and thoughts. Why so blind to the real me? Perhaps that is what pulls me apart, but I was honest something is not right. Mourn, mourn, mourn with sort of

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-86020615190367502562010-06-05T16:13:00.001-04:002010-09-20T08:53:06.194-04:00

I've hit a milestone today. That is doing my own hair. But not just doing anything to my own hair. Rather conquering the self-imposed and crippling belief that I could never curl my own hair. Ta-da! Oh yes, I curled my own hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is HUGE and I mean H U U U U U G E for me. Just this morning I was telling mum that if I was to ever go abroad to a remote country (of which mum

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-71277367143426491632010-06-05T11:12:00.002-04:002010-06-05T11:18:55.347-04:00

Sometimes I feel like a dormant person. It must be excruciatingly boring and annoying to read my blog posts sometimes as a result. I know it's all the melancholy I keep swimming and diving in which is sort of a byproduct of my self diagnosed depression. Gosh, I sound like a very sad case. BUT in reality I'm just a huge project in progress. I'm making me, the individual I want to be. That actually

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-11237949993106339762010-06-04T04:03:00.000-04:002010-06-04T04:03:38.862-04:00

I have such a horrible headache. But what's worst is the heartache that I have right now. I don't even know if it is a broken heart or an empty heart. It's all the same at the moment. It's sad really, today's posts took me all do to complete. It's not like I wrote an essay either. I wonder at all if it has any concistency and coherency.  My head. I feel like I have pounded my head against a brick

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Elizabeth Gilbert said that "people are given that one special gift." So where is mine? Really "Dream of pillgrimage is within us" She talked about the internal engine that processes anxiety and other issues much better now in her life. Damn, what I would give to have that I tell you.

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Now when you ask most people why they would go to watch the new Sex and the City 2 movie they would  rarely not say "for the fashion". I must add rightly so as the film does have desirable articles of clothing and shoes a fashionable woman may desire to have herself.. However, I would also add for the thrill of watching relationships evolve (that being friendships and intimate attachments of

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When it is time to go, you go. That is how it should be. After days of trying to make things work, you just go as that is what one should do. Especially after just moments from actually having apologized for certain things that I said AND admitting that I have been wrong, all to hear "you always say that I am wrong". Really, thank you, that is definitely all I needed to hear after everything

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-42919209328866776502010-05-30T09:26:00.003-04:002010-09-20T08:51:06.247-04:00

Not to be vain and all, but my blog looks exceptionally pretty now. I must say that it gave me a smile just looking at it, which means that spending about good 1.5 hours on making it look summer ready was worth the work. On another note, it's nearly 9 am now, and I got back home roughly an hour and a half ago. It was a long night out with the girls, followed by a "lovely" night in the car. Yes, I

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-26516229366119809102010-05-28T00:26:00.000-04:002010-05-28T00:26:34.087-04:00

I'm back from CA since about two days ago now. Working on pictures at the moment since there were nearly 1,500 of them taken during trip if not more. Not to long ago I heard very devastating news about the death of our beloved neighbor Joan Holm. She was battling a pancreatic cancer disease as of late. She was a remarkable woman with open and welcoming heart.  Just after hearing the news from my

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Yesterday I arrived in Monterey, California which is located on California's Central Cost. I wish my sister said that it is COLD here, and I mean seriously cold! People, listen to me if you are ever going to Monterey, CA pleases, PLEASE, please bring sweaters, sweaters, sweaters, and more sweaters! On another note, I hope that all my freezing will end once we get to San Francisco in a couple of

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-5774312311193210752010-05-20T04:47:00.001-04:002010-06-03T08:58:53.367-04:00

I have not written in days not because of lack of things to wrote about. Mostly it has been a rollocoaster ride of emotions and events in the past days since my last post, which led to a very difficult day. Now things are on the brighter side, well the ride is still bumpy but "ces't la vie" after all. In several hours I am going to California. My first trip to WEST  COAST of America. An

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-54825417421163657012010-05-14T07:03:00.001-04:002010-09-20T08:49:35.005-04:00

I'm here writing because I watned to write it down. To let you know how I feel. To sum it up I feel bad, so bad that my eyelids hurt from a half sleep half restless night. The weather is also not helping. Two years ago we met. I never had envisioned the things that happened between us. The good, the bad, the ugly, the joyous, the painful....all of it. It was a new and a very unknown experience

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It's me your student loans! Yes that is how I envision the rest of my days right now. A time of student loans repayment ulcer invading my already brittle brain cells. Now I have to think of every purchase as my potentially last, until I manage to secure a well paying job that will help me repay my loans. Sigh,  deep inhale and a very good exhale is what I need. Hence my trip to get my hair done

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Unfortunately due to the fact that I am more sick today even , than yesterday! I shall not do any addition stops while in the city today before I depart for home. Sigh with a cough that is :( Oh well, NYC will always be there (in spite of all of the attempted car bombings and additional scares) next time, I am very confident in the city's might. I love NYC, I should definitely live there at

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-67049932116894496212010-05-07T01:00:00.000-04:002010-05-07T01:00:28.323-04:00

I'm sick. I have been forseeing this evil event of falling down to an ilness, and it hit me about two days ago. Alas, I will not let it ruin me for long. So far I have been handling it well, let's hope it will continue on.  I have been learning about evolutions of relationships. The people whom I love, I truly love and happily I am loved back. Be it true family (I have personals reasons for

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I just finished watching the film I chose earlier Dot the I, and here are my raw impressions about this experience. Cast- believable and fresh Plot- refreshing, intriguing, spicy, engaging, surprising, thoughtful, witty, makes one hold their breath for a moment Cinematography- matched the music selection well, overall an interesting approach to filming Music- promising at times Piercing scene:

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After a throughout and a bit daunting research I have decided to settle on a movie called Dot the I, for the night. The film is a psychological thriller starring Gael García Bernal (whose movies I seem to often enjoy), Natalia Verbeke, and James D'Arcy. I'm going to give the movie a try before going to bed. I wonder if I will enjoy the soundtrack of this movie as much as I did in the film

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-40705605532282342062010-05-05T03:15:00.001-04:002010-05-05T03:17:24.559-04:00

Often times I see incredible pictures of beautiful pictures that people take from the places they have traveled to. I'm not going to lie, I am in awe with considerable amount of jealousy at what they have been able to experience and see with their own eyes, touch with their own hands, experience with their sense of smell and breath in the air of those fantastic places.  Sigh, I hope they cherish

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-45823011133012908872010-05-04T11:27:00.002-04:002010-05-04T11:44:30.641-04:00

Now that I am jobless and will hopefully have some free time, I hope to make some things like on this site "P.S.-I made this..." To be honest, I have so many ideas of what I would like to make, and all the scraps of metal, fabrics, broken jewelery, fancy and funky buttons that I save need- Revival! YES I must make something of those things. I am definitely going to find some more needed

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-23605588498819200382010-05-03T19:20:00.000-04:002010-05-03T19:20:47.996-04:00

In NYC at the moment. In between spending time with my precious family here, I hope to visit the Statue of Liberty. Why you ask? Well since I am a citizen it feels right to pay homage to the place. I'll let you know how it goes if I manage to make it there this week. Why do I love NYC so much. Mostly because of my family. And yes the city also makes you fall in love with the craziness at sight :)

Efrutiknoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1595067331572847860.post-86634881768298472392010-04-29T00:43:00.000-04:002010-04-29T00:43:31.362-04:00

Starting from April 27, 2010 I am adding an additional holiday celebration to my life's calendar. I am an American today for the third day in a row.

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Today my fellow blogger friend Jessica posted an interesting  entry about "Boobquake" in Belgium. I'm not sure how that all turned out at the moment, but the "Boobquake" phenomenon made to Washington, D.C. alright. I just finished watching a short news segment on several women who participated in this revealing protest. I say revealing, well because their boobies were center-stage at this protest

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